its only 7.18now and i am already awake for more than 45 minutes.

coz i had a nightmare. a nightmare that i dun understand.

usually i understand my nightmare, like some kind of ghost is chasing afetr me. but this time i dun understand it. its very confusing, pieces here and there, but somehow they are linked together, trying to convey a message.

there was this pretty girl who came to my house, and i found out that her father was murdered. and this girl wanted revenge. but i dunno why she came to our hse for revenge. she has this green stone in her hand that has some words carved on it. she waved the stone in the air, and there was this really bitter and poisonous odour that came out. and the girl screamed and said the odour that was given out is the grieve of losing her father, and the unhappiness of her father's ghost. that time me, my sis and my bro is at home. i didnt know where my bro went to, but me and my sis hid inside the toilet. but the odour was still there. i kept telling myself to keep awake, coz the odour was taking effect on us. i asked my sis to do so too. i guess becoz i was quite determined, i didnt faint or something, so did my sis. then we tried to open the toilet door and peeked, and we saw that the pretty girl was throwing away the green stone into the rubbish bin. and she suddenly became very nice and gentle to us, and said she cooked noodles for us. and my bro is so greeedy that he ate the noodles without thinking. my sis ate the noodles too. i refused to eat the noodles, coz the pretty girl mus hav poisoned it. she forced me to eat the noodles, and i stood strong on my stand even tho i was famished. i was thinking if my sis and bro fainted becoz of eating the noodles, at least i could save them. and that girl was forcing me, and the scene changed. i had suddenly teleported to the Hell. and i saw a lot of people thrown into the boiling water becoz of their evil deeds. but i saw that they were being tortured severely, i tried to save them from the boiling water. i gave up my life in exchange for their freedom from those tortures. and the people survived, and the burns and scars on their bodies disappeared. they agreed not to do anymore evil deeds anymore. i woke up.

i looked arnd, and i realised its only 3+am. i was shocked by what i have dreamt. i dun understand why the sudden change of scene. and why did i agree to give up my life to save those people? i tot that the nightmare was over, so i tot i could sleep peacefully.

but the moment i fell asleep, the nightmare continued.

i woke up at 4 plus once again. i woke up from the nightmare. i knew if i fall asleep, the nightmare will continue. but i didnt want it to continue. so i kept myself awake, until arnd 5 plus i really cannot make it alr, i continued my sleep, and so did my nightmare.

i woke up, terrified from all the continuous nightmare i was having. normally after i woke up from one nightmare, there will be no more nightmares as i go to sleep again. but the moment i close my eyes those nightmares continued. i dont understand what my nightmare was trying to tell me.

i looked at the clock, it was 6am. i really didnt want to fall asleep anymore. i moved closer to my sister, and stared into blank space trying to figure out my nightmare. i climbed out of bed at 6.40am, and was glad that my mum has woken up already.

i forget about my nightmare easily, but this particular nightmare is haunting me every second, i keep thinking about it, and cant take my mind off it.

i am really scared.

i dont want to tell my mum coz she will surely say i am mad

my dad wont have any opinions abt this

so i feel really creepy and scared if i bottle this up myself. i decided to blog about it. at least i wrote out how i really felt inside.

i hope the nightmare wouldnt continue tonight, coz i hav a feeling that the nightmare hasnt ended. i jus have this feeling.